Što s tom ljubavlju? / What to do with that love?

 

Kaže on meni: Nije pjesma… Htio sam ti reći da te volim, ali rekli smo da to nećemo. Htio sam ti reći mišek pišek, ali je i to van pameti. Htio sam te pitati da li je moguće, ovu ljubav koju osjećam prema tebi dignuti još više napraviti je besmrtnom ne usmjerenom na tebe već na cijeli univerzum ili barem na samog mene? Mora biti nešto više, od moje želje da svršavam u tebi i da te držim za ruku dok se šetamo po mjesečini. Mora biti nešto više, od naše želje da imamo djecu i da ih zajedno odgajamo. Mora biti nešto više, od zajedničkog života, jer to smo sve već imali, to smo sve već vidjeli. Ne znam kako da ti kažem da te volim i da te želim i da želim plaziti po tebi i da volim biti u tvom društvu ali mora biti nešto iznad nešto čemu težimo ti, više nego ja a opet zajedno jer smo se zbog toga našli mora biti nešto više mora biti Kako do toga, pametna moja ljubavi? Kako do toga, molim te reci mi! Nemoj, okolišati Reci mi!       Ja ću na to: ... upravo tako... medo moj veliki :) ups! :D prestat ćemo misliti na... ono što nam paše ili ne ono što nam se sviđa ili ne one koji nas 'vole' ili ne i počet ćemo Biti... bez razloga bez razmišljanja bez prosuđivanja samo ćemo Biti... Sretni Zadovoljni Spokojni Ljubavni... (joj kako otrcano zvuče samo riječi) zajedno ili ne kad smo Jedno... sa sobom s tobom sa svime što postoji ili ne ...   :*

He says to me: It’s not a poem… I wanted to tell you I love you, but we agreed not to do that. I wanted to call you "sweetie-pie," but that’s just silly, too. I wanted to ask you if it’s possible to elevate this love I feel for you even higher, to make it immortal— not directed at you, but at the entire universe, or at least at myself? There has to be something more than just my desire to cum inside you and hold your hand while we walk in the moonlight. There has to be something more than our desire to have children and raise them together. There has to be something more than just a life together, because we’ve already had all that; we’ve already seen it all. I don’t know how to tell you that I love you and want you, and that I want to crawl all over you, and that I love being in your company, but there has to be something beyond that— something we strive for, you more than me, yet together, because that’s why we found each other; there has to be something more, there has to be. How do we get there, my clever love? How do we get there? Please, tell me! Don’t beat around the bush. Tell me!   And I reply: ... exactly... my big teddy bear :) oops! :D we’ll stop thinking about... what suits us or doesn’t what we like or don’t those who ‘love’ us or don’t and we’ll start Being... without reason without overthinking without judgment we’ll simply Be... Happy Content Serene Loving... (oh, how trite those words sound) together or not when we are One... with ourselves with you with everything that exists or doesn’t ...     :*