Asertivna? / Assertive?

Znaš, gazda me jučer pohvalio… Naglasio je kako je baš zadovoljan kako vodim SVOJ odjel… Hm, ne čini li ti se to malo čudnim i nije li ti, možda, ponudio da oko njega napraviš opkop s močvarom? Ha, ha… ha? Da li bi imao nešto protiv da dođem raditi kod tebe? Svaka me promjena smeta. To nema veze s tim tko bi došao, ali mene zanima da li bih ti ja osobno smetala. Ti si jaka ličnost. ??? Možeš li mi pojasniti tu izjavu, jer ja to doživljavam kao nešto pozitivno, ali ne bih rekla da si ti baš tako mislio. Nisam, u pravu si. To mi znači da si napadač koji ne odustaje od svojih ideja. Možeš li analizirati taj osjećaj, izjavu i promotriti zašto me tako doživljavaš? Naime, kada te pitam što si mislio prije tri dana, ne pitam te to zato da te napadnem, već zato da sebi pojasnim doživljavanja i osjećaje, kako bih izbjegla brije i projekcije, prvenstveno svoje, a ne tvoje… A ovo je ozbiljan problem… Meni je problem jer tražiš od mene da se sjetim svega što pričam i mislim i naporno mi je stalno biti svjestan onoga što govorim… Pa, ne bi li uvijek trebali težiti budnosti? Odjednom postadoh svjesna svoje iluzije da smo na sličnim valnim duljinama…

You know, the boss praised me yesterday… he emphasized how satisfied he is about leading MY department… Hm, it is little bit strange and, maybe, he is offered you to make a swampy canal around it, isn’t he? Ha, ha… ha? Would you have something against my coming to work with you? Every change is bothering me. That has nothing with anybody’s coming, but I would like to know if I will bother you. You are a very strong personality. ??? Can you explain me that statement? I find it very positive, but I would not say that you thought so. No, I didn’t; you are right. That means you are attacker who is not giving up his ideas. Could you analyze that feeling, statement and look over why you experience me like this? When I asked you what you thought three days ago, I asked not to attack you, but to explain my experiences and feelings, to avoid my projections, mine, not yours… And this is serious problem…   For me the problem is to remember everything what I am saying and thinking and it is an effort to be always consciousness everything… Well, shouldn’t we always strive for being alert, should we?    Suddenly I become aware of my illusion that we are on the similar wave lengths…