Preljub… / Adultery…

Reci mi… imam dojam da nisam pošten prema tebi... skrivam se… ne znam da li bih pričao s tobom pod drugim okolnostima… možda bi ti željela ipak biti s nekim, u nekom, hm, normalnom odnosu… a ja te zadržavam… Kako to misliš? Da li mi nedostaje svjetovni život? Da li mi nedostaju igre mačke i miša, glumljenje da ne znamo što nam je glavni cilj kad nam prorade hormoni…? Misliš, da li mi nedostaje kino, birtija, seks…? Pa, da… rekla si da bi se željela… bogato… udati… Misliš da ne bih mogla, da to doista želim? Pa, da, u pravu si… mogla bi… onda, ipak? Čitam neki dan o preljubničkom odnosu… pazi sad… u takvom odnosu, ako se radi o trokutu, osoba „bez obaveza“ se postepeno udaljava od svojih prijatelja, zanimacija, jer iščekuje javljanje osobe „s obavezom“ kako bi se mogla prilagoditi… „obaveza“ obično sluti da postoji i treća strana u vezi, a onaj koji vodi dvostruki život postepeno postaje nervozan skrivajući se lažima… i nekako me to podsjetilo... Jest da nije baš klasično… Da li bi mogao biti sa mnom ovako da si u braku? Ne bih… osjećao bih se kao da varam ženu… Da… iako, neobično… nekako sam si zamišljala da kad sam s nekim u braku, odnosno i fizički intimna, da to ne bi isključivalo i ovu vrstu intimnosti koju dijelim s tobom… tako da osoba s kojom bih bila i fizički zajedno ne bi imala na što biti ljubomorna ili čime biti prevarena… Ali, nedavno smo pričali da ne postoji muško-žensko prijateljstvo… uvijek je nešto prikriveno… Da, vjerojatno je to… Onda, ne želim da se oženiš… ;D I, nemoj me povrijediti… lažima…

Tell me… I have an impression I am not fair with you… I am hiding… I am not sure if I would talk with you on other circumstances… maybe you would like to be with someone else, in some, mh, normal relationship… and I am stopping you… What do you mean? Am I missing worldly life? Am I missing fm plays, acting what is not the main goal when hormones are getting mad…? You think, am I missing cinema, coffee shop, sex…? Well, yes… you said you would like to getting married… richly… You think I couldn’t if I only wanted? Well, yes, you are right… you could… well, than? I am reading some days ago about adulterous relationship… watch it… In such a relationship, if it is about triangle, the person “without an obligation” is removing gradually from hers/his friends, interests… it is because she/he is expecting calling from person “with an obligation” in the sense of adjusting… “the obligation” usually forebodes there is the third side in the relationship, and that one who is leading twofold life gradually becomes nervous, hiding it with lies… and somehow it reminded me… Well, it is not classical… Could you be with me like this if you were married? No, I could not… I would feel if I were cheating my wife… Yes… but, strange… I was imagine if I am married, I mean intimate in physical way, that will be include this kind of intimacy which I share with you, too… so, that person should not be jealous or cheated… But, not so far ago, we spoke there is no friendship between man and woman… there is always something hidden…   Yes, probably is that… Than, I would not you to get married… ;D And, do not hurt me… with lies…