Iskustva / Experiences

Ne, pitanje je zapravo, koje sam ti htio postaviti svojedobno je –zašto ti imaš takva iskustva… to meni nije, to me stvarno neki put fascinira, kužiš… kako to da ti imaš toliko tih iskustava, a tak si zajebana! Ovaj, tak siiii … to mi nije jasno… Bilo bi mi dosadno da nisam zajebana… Nevjerojatno kako ljudi steknu različite dojmove… o jednoj te istoj osobi… ja ništa ne radim! Da. Ne znam, da, nisi mi ti jasna… ti si enigma… Viš da sam postala ko ti! Ma nisi postala ko ja. Bila si takva i prije. ... Razmišljam o tome kako smo mi zapravo podložni tim utjecajima vanjskim kad negdje ideš, s nekim se družiš… i onda nakon nekog vremena ustanoviš da počneš kopirat ljude i da je tvoja energija, zapravo, kolko god da ti misliš da ti utičeš na druge ljude  zapravo, tolko i drugi ljudi utiču na tebe i na kraju si nigdje i ništa, mislim… na kraju ne znam što je to… ne znam kaj s tim da radim… tako da je, kužiš, a nikako da dođem do tih nekih iskustava.... pričam s ljudima kojima je bilo ovako ili onako... jebo te.. A ti ništa? A ja ništa.

No, the question, actually, what I intended to ask, was - why you have such experiences... this is not... sometimes this fascinates me, you know... how come you have so many such experiences, and you are so fucked up! I mean, you are sooo... I can't understand it... It will be so boring if I am not so fucked up... It is so unbelievable how can people made different conclusions... about one and single person... even I don't need to do anything! Yes. I don't know, yes, I don't understand you...  you are enigma... You see I became like you! You didn't. You were like this before. ... I am thinking about how we are actually subjected to all those outer influences when you are going somewhere, you keep friends company... and then, after a while,  you realize that you started copying people and that your energy...  actually, in spite what you think you are influencing other people and they are also influencing you and at the end you are nobody and nowhere, I think... at the end I don't know what is it... don't know what to do with it... so, you know, and I can't reach those experiences... I speak with people who experienced this and that... fuck... And you have nothing? I have nothing.