Nagoni / Instincts

Ima ljudi koje osjećam kao agresore na sebe i zapitah se zašto... izazivam li to sama ili... To su ljudi koje sam prihvatila kao prijatelje, ali ponekad... kad se prijeđu neke moje granice, čak i kad to dopustim, možda dolaze do dijelova mene koje ne odobravaju, i tada se sve mijenja... Sve mi to liči na odnose u čoporu i odnos prema Vođi krda… U tim nekim trenucima na vidjelo izlazi poriv za natjecanjem i određena neravnopravnost. Ne postoji  jednakost, uvijek mora biti određena neravnoteža. Kao da je naučeno pokoravanje autoritetu, ali čim se osjeti slabost na drugoj strani, koristi se trenutak i skače na prednju poziciju. To je normalno za niže razine i osjećam to ponekad i kod sebe. A sve me to podsjetilo na priču o mišu koji je, zahvaljujući blagoslovu, postao tigar, ali je ostao miš u dubini svoga bića… Trebamo naučiti kako postati istinski Kralj... ovladavši svojim nižim razinama

There are some people that I feel aggressive, and, naturally, I ask why… is this my fault or… Those are people I have accepted as friends, but sometimes… when they cross my borders, even with my permission … maybe they are seeing some parts of mine they can not approve, and then – everything changes… All of that is like crowd relation and relation towards the lieder of the crowd. In these moments one can see competition impetus and some kind of inequality. There is no equivalence; it has to be some bias, always. As if it is learned to surrender to the authority, but as soon as one feels weakness on the other side, one uses it and jump to the front position. It is normal for lower levels of being, and, sometimes, I can feel it, too, inside of me. And all of that remind me of the story about mouse who, through the blessing, became tiger, but was still the same mouse in the heart… We have to learn how to be real King... with conquering our lower levels